Why won't she EAT?!

Today I took Elizabeth to the local nursing store where they weigh babies for free and the lactation consultants are there to talk. Elizabeth hasn't gained any weight in the past 3 weeks, despite following her around at every moment of every day pleading with her to eat various high calorie foods! So much for that. Of course, having the roseola virus last week didn't help the cause. But the lactation consultant was extremely reassuring that all is well and that despite the lack of weight gain, Elizabeth is happy and healthy and that there's nothing I can do to make her eat any more until she decides she wants it.

So I was feeling upset, but reasonably calm until I came home and made a huge mistake--I plotted her current weight on the growth chart and saw that she dropped a bit further (10% to 6%). Then I proceeded to freak out. Why won't she just eat?! It's driving me crazy, especially because her weight has been an issue since she was in the WOMB and measuring small. Rationally, I totally understand that she's meant to be a small person, doesn't seem to have any underlying oral/sensory/physical issues, eats like a bird, is extremely active, and meets or exceeds all her developmental milestones. But then I see that darn number and I just want her to GROW!!!

So another exercise in letting go of my worry and trusting in the Lord, which I am so far handling in a pitifully anxious way. Her follow-up appointment with the pediatrician is on Monday so we'll see what he has to say. But all of the above is just further evidence to conclude that this parenthood is way harder than I thought it would be (and I thought it would be pretty hard)! And we haven't even had anything actually truly wrong yet!